In my second week, yoga moved beyond the constraints of my brief morning practices. I find myself noticing the breath flowing in and out with the rhythm of ocean waves. Deep breaths that are visible by the movement of my chest and belly. Belly breathing! Once I struggled to relearn and now it comes naturally.
Throughout the day, my awareness moves to tight muscles while sitting in meetings and I consciously soften.
I spontaneously do mountain pose and side stretch when I am cooking or in the bathroom.
Yet I struggle in my practice. Memories of deep poses push me past my body’s edges. Every couple of days aches and pains remind me that my body is in a different state. My heels remain inches off the floor in downward facing dog. I cannot touch the floor in triangle pose.
Oh how intolerable this feels sometimes.
I recognize now that my past yoga practice has a touch of serene boastfulness. I would rise and rotate and settle in deeply to the poses. My minds eye would see grace, symmetry and balance in settings where the sun rose pink and golden over deep blue seas.
In nostalgic moments I press pass my stiff ligaments and popping joints. Twinges pull me back to my edge.
My yoga sessions are different this time around. I know the poses and the adaptations to make my practice safe.
I must practice acceptance and gentleness.
I must float not force.
We shall see what week three brings.